That Moment When You Hoped No One Was Looking…

graceful fall

This is how I once imagined I handled change, peaceful right?

But in reality, I’ve discovered I’m not that graceful or trusting.
In fact, I’m sure if I had the chance to look down, there’d be a group of people all watching the chaos of my tumbling, an entertaining sight I’m certain it is…

You see, some say the jump, the actual decision to embrace change in life is the hardest, while others would say the journey has it’s own challenges to face.

Let me let you into my mental process for a second.

First, the exhilaration of the jump is exciting.  It’s a new adventure.  Change is good.  I wonder what the future holds…A rush of possibilities and opportunities flood my mind.

Then………….. enters the shock of it all, “I don’t know what I’m doing.  I don’t know where I’m going.  I need that familiar life I once knew.  I knew who I was there.”  I find security in the familiar, and begin grasping for anything that reminds me of what once was…or looking for what will be.  Let the tumbling begin…

My wonderful husband, does what he can to guide me through the process of change, reminds me he’s here, loves me, and listens as I share my heart about the unknown.  Friends and family call me to see how I’m doing, encourage me, and remind me how much I’m truly thankful for.

But the truth is…they aren’t the ones I need.  You see, I’ve always been about relationships.  And instead of finding security in things, a job, or money, which some tend to do.  I tend to find my security in my relationships.  Don’t get me wrong, friends are wonderful, and having a husband love me so well is incredible.  Relationships I hope to never let go unappreciated.  But through this, through the tumbling, the grasping, the need to know the purpose of this change and where we’re heading, I’m learning that security, the security I need comes from my own relationship with God and my trust in Him.  I’m sure he laughs at all my flailing about as He waits patiently for me to stop.  And he simply reminds me that He’s here.

There’s a moment in the process of change when you realize the power of those two words.  He’s here.  I’m not alone.  I’m not doing this by myself.  I’m not really falling.  He is still with me, and the person I am is still the same person despite the changing circumstances or surroundings…well, the same person who’s learning and growing a lot…

He’s here with me.  He’s there with you.  Now, to dust myself off and keep moving forward…

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Wake Up and Live.

I came across this foto this morning…

wake up and live

Sounds simple enough, doesn’t it?  Oh, that’s all I have to do.  Isn’t that what I do everyday?  But what does this statement really mean?  I can tell you now that it’s going to take a few cups of coffee this morning to wake me up, but we all know this statement goes deeper than that.

I was reading Proverbs 24:30-32 today.  What I really liked about this passage is the different way it is written.  For those of you, who have studied Proverbs, you know it can sometimes read as a list of guidelines as Solomon shares his wisdom.  But in this particular passage, it reads as though he is telling a bit of a story, sharing a moment in his life, though brief, it is a nice change of pace and stands out to me, just as the quote above did.

He explains, “I went past the field of the sluggard, past the vineyard of the man who lacks judgement; thorns had come up everywhere, the ground was covered with weeds, and the stone wall was in ruins.  I applied my heart to what I observed and learned a lesson from what I saw:…”  And he continues on with what he learned…

But here’s what caught my attention…he applied his heart to his observations.  First, he took the time to observe, what could be a scene or moment not worth anyone else’s attention.  He observed.  He took the time to be aware of his surroundings.  He wasn’t caught up in strictly getting from point A to point B, but took in life or lack thereof, that was around him.  Then he learned.  He learned a lesson in life and about life.

There is always the opportunity to learn, not just lessons in life, but about people, about situations, etc.  Wake up and Live.  Are you awake?  Life is happening all around us.  What have you learned today?