It’s 12:30am and I can’t sleep. Being over 7 months pregnant has a tendency to create such a situation, and I’m hoping to soon get some much needed rest.
But since I’m awake, my mind is going. I’ve been thinking a lot about my day today. It was long. I was tired. And honestly, my patience was running a little low. Being a stay at home mom definitely has challenges of its own. I wasn’t motivated to do much today and just wanted some personal time, some time to rest.
How many of you have experienced days like this? Maybe you spent the day working hard, putting your best foot forward, giving your all at work, and really working to be a leader in your workplace. Traffic makes for a long commute home and all you want to do is crash on the couch and tune out. Yet, as soon as you walk through the door your children need help with homework or want to play, your wife or husband has asked for some assistance, and you think to yourself, “don’t they understand how hard I worked all day?” And you retreat and tune them out, or show an attitude of disapproval as you unwillingly give them your time.
Your family gets your leftovers…what you believe is left to give, which isn’t much. And each day continues just like the previous. Your family gets the leftovers.
I won’t lie, pregnancy has definitely made me more sentimental, but honestly, for a while now I’ve been thinking a lot about the importance of Family. It’s so easy to see family as something you are just a part of rather than your greatest investment. Your involvement is needed and is important.
Being a husband, a father, a wife, a mother, is more than a title or a role…it’s a great responsibility.
Though I know I’m not perfect and I struggle some days with my attitude, with my patience, with my motivation, with my own selfishness, I must remember that my family deserves my best effort, my time, my love, what I have to give. I want my husband to see my effort to create a loving, respectful, comfortable home for him. I want him to know that I am so proud of the man he is and is becoming, honored to be his wife, and help to encourage him and lift him up. I want my children to know that they are loved, cared for, safe, encouraged, priceless, and worth my time. I want to be a part of helping them grow into the man and woman they are created to be. I want to be an example for them, not one of perfection, but one who is honest, learns, forgives, loves, gives grace and understanding, and helps guide them. I don’t want my family to have the leftovers of the day, my leftovers, but rather have the best of me, knowing that I am an important part of my family for a reason, with a purpose.